No time today
This morning I turned the face of the clock on my desk to the wall. I stuck post-its on the clocks of the oven and microwave. The big one on the TV-closet went face down and the little one by the sink is staring at the tube of hand cream that’s usually behind it. The time in my computer’s taskbar had to go and the screensaver awaited the same fate. With some acrobatics I did all this without seeing what time it was. Hurrah!
Why? Today is all mine. That’s not only very rare but also lethal. I could meditate, do yoga, go swimming, clean, read, study, write, sketch, draw, make music, go for a walk, ride my bicycle, take pictures, surf the web, Skype, review my GTD lists, dabble in Personal Brain, make plans, code scripts, watch documentaries, visit an expo … What I usually do to tackle this abundance is using a sort of class hours: an hour of reading, an hour of sketching, an hour of this, an hour of that … but the day remains too short!
With all these plans in my head I lock myself completely. What is most important? Shouldn’t I be doing something that’s actually useful? If I do one thing, I leave the other. My daily choices shape my future. Karma. To choose is to lose. As a result I end up feeling bad, I don’t enjoy my day and I hardly find satisfaction from my choices. A chronic feeling of falling short. By not wanting to miss out on anything, I miss out on everything. Enough! Today I choose what feels right, moment by moment.
After censoring time, I sat down for what usually is an hour of meditation, but I didn’t set the timer. I intended to just feel when I had sat enough. This went fine and the meditation was blissful. Striving reared its head a couple of times but I could let it pass easily.
This text is long enough. The sun is shining. I’m going to ride my bicycle.
PS: The rest of the day was majestic, but I didn’t feel like writing about it. 
Soundtrack
I just don’t know what to do with myself – Dusty Springfield
What you waiting for? – Gwen Stefani
No time – Monkees
I’m late! – Disney
Links
Kenneth Folk talks about choice
Personal Brain
Getting Things Done
